Elf Blood

Morning all! It’s been a good few days; I’m sure a number of you know or have realised that I’ve begun therapy to help me through my depression and anxiety issues (don’t worry, they’re not fixing the crazy), and I feel that it’s starting to pay off. One exercise in particular I find is helping is reclaiming the confidence I felt when I was performing on stage, and redirecting it to other parts of my life.

I guess that’s something that’s always confused me about myself; How was it possible that the same guy who could sing in front of hundreds of people had such difficulty in more intimiate social situations? That someone who could address crowds would shy away from groups of people, always existing, often intentionally, on the outskirts of many social circles.

The great thing about the approach I’m taking is that I’m not focussing (as much) on the past; So I still don’t quite know why I wound up like this (although I’m beginning to gain a bit of an understanding), rather than sitting and analysing the path I’ve taken instead I’m able to find that good place and use it to improve my life now. I feel so much better; I feel more in control, more worthwhile, more like the person I want to be.

I’m still a long ways off from where I want to end up, of course; I’ve only been to a few sessions, after all. But that the effects are taking root and helping me already, that encourages me greatly. I would urge any of you who suffer from depression and anxiety to seek help before it gets worse. It can be made better, if you want it to.

I’m looking forward to growing even more, as a person 🙂

Oh, and congratulations to our US friends! I’m not an overly political person, but I’m very glad that Obama was elected back in. Now, the political eye here swings round to our own elections in the near future. Some BNP candidate shoved a letter through my mailbox today; I tore it up and binned it. I will not live under a bigot, thank you very much.

Anyhoo, ciao for now, and have a great weekend folks!

M.